it’s 1998 and i’m standing
on the shore of san clemente
state beach at seven pm as
the sand squishes up between
my toes like brown sugar
and my mother, young
and nervously surveying the
surf for jellyfish, sits at my side
“god is good,” she croons
one of her sweet refrains
i turn back to her and
the sunset reflects off
her caramel, fifty-cent
goodwill sunglasses
it reminds me of another
of her sayings:
there are no accidents.
but i was an accident
like how a scoop too much of
baking soda in cookie dough
turns the whole batch sour
i turn back to the sea,
saying nothing
“god is good,” she evangelizes,
as nearby seagulls squawk and eat
washed up kelp, rotting flotsam,
plastic shit that holds
bottles together
i take a running step forward
she says something else
but the tide splash
and flap of feathers
drown everything out
A.T. Ross (he/him) is a queer artist from Elizabethtown, Kentucky. His work explores themes of mental health, sexuality, and gender identity from the perspective of someone who navigated the difficulties of growing up queer in the religious southern United States.
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